I’m not a wildly sentimental person, but my favorite holidays and celebrations are my favorites for some pretty flowery reasons. I love New Year’s (Eve/Day) for the feeling of celebrating the end of something (and reflecting on its meaning for the future) and also for celebrating the beginning of something new. (To quote Semisonic: “Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.” Yeah, I appealed to 90’s pop music. Deal with it.) I don’t like using the phrase “a fresh start” or similar things for New Year’s, because I don’t believe there is a fresh start at the beginning of a new year. The slate is not wiped clean. However, it IS a line of demarcation. Or one can view it as such. That was last year; this is the next year. It’s not a new book (a completely fresh start) but it can be considered a new chapter. I don’t know; I think I’m ranting aimlessly at this point. I just find myself trying to justify my love of New Year’s more this year than in the past because I’ve had discussions with a New-Year’s-hater recently and feel I need to have some reasoning for how I view the holiday.
Maybe I just have too much time to think on semester breaks. I’m not myself. Today do you want to know what I’m doing? I cleaned the bathroom and the kitchen. And did laundry. And now I’m going to BAKE and then cook dinner. What a weird existence. I mean, not a weird existence in general. I know there are people who do this every day. But for me, it is strange. I am not the housewifey type. I’m used to running around like a crazy person having too many things on my to-do list that I won’t be able to finish on time. I’m definitely going to have to get a job in the summer, partly to financially support myself, and partly so I don’t go crazy with boredom. Summer break is 3-4 times this break in length, and I’ll probably spend about the same amount of time travelling. No, not proportionally. I mean I’ll probably be away for 2 weeks, then have to entertain myself alone in my apartment for 3 months instead of 2 weeks.
I will be glad to be back to work in less than 2 weeks. But grad school is hard and I’ll be longing for spring break long before it will actually come to me…
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